Halloween was mental. Met all of Tina's flatmates, and they're such lovely people. Down to 144.8 lbs this morning. I haven't really got much to say at that moment hence the lack of updates, life is sort of at a standstill. I'd like to start writing again to make me feel like I'm doing something productive but everything is so dead at the moment. I love that it's winter, I love the cosy evenings and the coats and the way smoke looks when it trails out of my mouth. But I feel guilty and lonely and low and childish and like November is going to be just as sterile and ineffective as October was. That sounds so utterly depressing and bleak and negative but that is how I'm feeling. December, on the other hand, will be brilliant. Bash is coming home from the states, which I am overjoyed about as I miss her so much. Everyone will be together celebrating and staying indoors drinking hot chocolate and smoking spliffs. Stoner Christmas with the friendos.
Tomorrow I'm seeing the two most important males currently in my life. Alfie, and my father. Not at the same time of course. Alfie wants to pop over in the morning as he's back to uni tomorrow and I won't see him again until the holidays. It's not really what I want, an idle friendly chat over coffee. I want to see him and kiss him and for him to hold me and tell me how much he missed me. But it's not going to be like that. Things have changed now. I guess even though that's hard for me to accept, I will have to accept it eventually. I'm not the main thing in his life anymore. People move on. Time for me to move on too.
How is everyone? I promise I'll be back commenting as soon as I can. <3
WOW! Love the cheekbones, LOVE the jaw line... natural beauty mark, yes or no?
ReplyDeleteNo wonder you get scouted on the streets! Your wrists look so tiny, whenever I glimpse a pic of you, I'm convinced that you're fibbing about your weight to make me feel like a cow. :(
144? LIES.
The disimpressed look on your face convinces me that you decided to go as Felice Fawn after all... :p
Regardless, WAY to ROCK the black lipstick, lady!
Gabby, you're absolutely gorgeous.
ReplyDeleteI agree, you are absolutly stunning. And i cant believe you weigh 144, you look so delicate!
ReplyDeleteyou're so pretty! and i completely get what you mean about november, though i do agree that winter is awesome and i cant wait for december and all the christmassy excitement it brings! i hope you have a good time yesterday :) xo.
ReplyDeleteYour bone structure is to die for hunn. Stunning, just stunning. And if you look this refined at 144, you don't have much to lose to get where you want to. Great to hear your night went well and hope everything goes well. Keep us posted love!
ReplyDeletewow gabby you look amazing!! look at those gorgeous cheekbones, and your teeny tiny wrists!! you really are beautiful :) xxxx
ReplyDeleteAww you look lovely. I love that dress, such a great halloween outfit.
ReplyDeleteI agree with the comments above, stunning cheek bones and wrists. I wish I looked like that at 144 <3
Alice xx
You are so beautiful. I truly mean that. I want you to be happy so badly and have everything you want out of life. Sorry I almost teared up thinking about how much you are trying to make it in the world and making the best of things.
ReplyDeleteGoing to school, staying focused, trying to eat healthy, taking care of your body, being there for the bf. I am in awww at the moment so excuse my blah.
*hugs* Your are so stunning. Dark hair suits you very well.