Day 1

Weighed 167.2 lbs this morning, so down a lb from yesterday. I don't know how that happened, with the late night port and roast chicken, but it did so I'm not complaining.
 
Tentatively, the plan is to go a little mad over the next three months. It's the summer holidays, which means no school, no commitments, and generally the kind of social interaction that merely involves coffee and/or vodka. So I'm taking advantage and shooting for a large amount of weight loss before October. Or, more specifically, before I turn 22 at the end of September. I don't have a "goal weight" so to speak. I guess I'm seeing, in a morbidly curious way, how far I can push it before people start to pick me up on it. It's so easy these days to say I've lost or gained weight out of stress, or eating "healthy". I don't consider 170 lbs to be healthy so that statement makes me laugh.

Intake:

-- Potato salad, leftovers (150 cals)
-- 2 pieces of toast with butter and jam (250 cals)
-- Diet coke (1 cal)
-- Espresso frappuccino, soy (x*)
-- 1/3 olive pesto panini (100 cals)
-- Roast chicken breast w/mayo (175 cals)
-- Bite of bagel w/avocado and lime (~30 cals)
-- Sushi pack, vegetarian (230 cals)
-- Sweets (90 cals)
-- Mango (30 cals)
-- Port (x)
-- 3 L water (0 cal)

-- Total (1056)

* I don't count coffee, which might sound a little counter-productive but it's generally my one treat, and the soy milk helps me get in stuff like B12 that I don't get from anywhere else. Plus, it's caffeine, which - at least in my mind - cancels some of those calories out. I also don't count alcohol, unless it's Baileys or something equally calorific. Lucky for me neither coffee nor booze have ever contributed to any weight gain I've experienced, so unless not counting them proves unhelpful in the future, for now I'll consider them "nil".

I shouldn't have had the 1/3 panini, but Lina and I went to Starbucks. I don't know why I feel this need to nibble on everything. I'd always rather have a bite of ten different things than a full meal. It does me no favours.

I'm thinking of subsisting off sushi, coffee and wine for the next three months. I definitely drink more coffee at home, which will be good in terms of curbing hunger and replacing meals. I like the idea of chain-drinking black coffee every morning for breakfast to kick my metabolism up the butt. And making fresh smoothies. I've really fallen off the fruit and veg wagon, but all that's going to change soon when I realise a mono meal of fresh fruit is almost always more satisfying and efficient than fatty carby goodness from Starbucks will ever be.

Today I really wanted to stop eating after 8 but I had that sushi. I definitely am going to stop eating after 10pm every day, as a base rule. The only things that will pass my lips after dinner will be alcohol, tea, water and diet coke. I'd like to condition myself into considering San Pellegrino and an apple "lunch". Today yes, I exceeded my limit. Only by a fraction but I'm justifying it by telling myself I'll be home in two days, where I can successfully restrict to my heart's content. I seem to buy, and eat less there naturally. Plus I can get away with eating maybe like, a salad for dinner if I want. It will be easy there. And too hot to want to overeat.

I have to pack for London. There's shit all over my room. Pill packets and empty bottles and clothes strewn everywhere. Just got some Port from the fridge and a cup of Diet Coke, and shared some of those sweets with Lina. I like that sweets are fat-free. They don't bother me as much as regular food.