My stomach is so swollen and painful. I have consumed far too much yet again. I don't understand what's wrong with me. Why can't I stop bingeing? I'm not bored - I have plenty of things to do. I'm unhappy, but no more unhappy than I normally am. I'm not starved or lacking nutrients or anything that might cause my body to physically rebel. So what the heck is my problem? Is it so hard for me to get to the end of the day and not undo all of my hard work? I guess tomorrow is another Day 1.
This may or may not provide an explanation for you, but when it comes to me, I find it difficult to NOT do something. Inspiration (in the form of thinspiration, and otherwise) is meant to incite action, but with an ED, it's meant to suppress action, and that's always been hard for me to deal with.
ReplyDeleteDoes that make any sense whatsoever?
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