Apocalypse

So I weighed myself and it wasn't actually as bad as I thought it would be. I'm 66 kg/146 lbs (BMI 21.6). That's still shit but I thought I'd have ballooned after last night. 

Last night was literally the worst. It took me until about 5.30 a.m. to fall asleep and my alarm was set for 10. Normally I'd sleep in till 3 in the afternoon during holidays (which is what I have been doing up until now) but my mother has decided to go on a rampage about revision and how much work I missed last term, so she's making me get up before lunch and work under her nose. 

God, it looks like the apocalypse outside. The weather in London at this time of year is so gloomy. You wake up in the dark and the second you get used to the light it goes dark again.

I don't know what my aim is here. I guess it's to get as thin as possible but still be attractive and functional, although I know that's a loose goal. Anywhere below 60 kilos and I start to enter the underweight region for my height. I wonder if 55 is too far...