Gah

I was doing so so well until this evening. I even saw freaking 142 lbs on the scales when I woke up, I was filled with the most elated joy. But now I'm surely gonna be back up to 144 or God forbid 145 after my late-night olive bread and camembert pig out.    

I really want to fast tomorrow but I have to see Ginger for coffee at 3, and then it's theatre at 7 which I need my strength for. So, despite how much I just want to stop eating to erase the damage of tonight, I guess it'll be back to 600 tomorrow. My plan is

Morning: Mocha 80
Afternoon: Grande skinny cappuccino from Starbucks 82
Evening (pre theatre): Broccoli & cheese pasta 262 (kids meal)
Snack: 3 rice cakes 120 Diet coke 0

Total cals 544

Should I weigh tomorrow? Probably not, I know that seeing anything over 143 will totally demotivate me. Yet I know that I won't be able to keep away from the scales.

Either way it's not going to be long to 138. 6 lbs more at the most, and if I include some fasts I know I'll be able to get there. I'm hoping the next few days of restriction will pave the way. At the weekend I'm going out for fish and chips with Tina and then going round the shops so if I save my money (and my appetite) for then, I can pig Saturday afternoon and fast Sunday. I'll make it easy on myself by doing a <100 fast which means I have room for some egg whites in the morning, a caffe misto or white coffee for lunch, and some tomatoes with a diet soda for supper... then hopefully I'll be so exhausted I can just pass out early and sleep through the hunger pangs.