Breakfast:
- Innocent orange and mango smoothie
- 1 saltine cracker with 1 tbsp peanut butter
Lunch:
- 2 red onion & chive bagels (I can't believe I ate TWO, but I was lunching with Tina and lost track)
- 3/4 dish of lemon, olive oil and chickpea Greek hoummous
- Medium soy cappuccino from Starbucks
Snack:
- Pita bread with marmite (again, I didn't need that, but I ate it anyway...)
- 1/2 avocado with walnuts and vegan dressing
- Black coffee
Dinner:
- 'Sweet Charity' fruit smoothie (strawberry, banana, rhubarb and vanilla)
- Diet coke
Exercise:
- 20 mins crunches, conditioning and yoga stretches
Extras:
- Only 1 glass of water :/
- Cigarettes
- Gum
It struck me today how much work I still have to do. My friend took some pictures of me in the park, and while I was satisfied a few of them, it still took a lot of editing to make me anywhere near happy with the image I saw of myself. My face looked chubby and my thighs, hips and arms made me cringe. I know that technically, at 147 lbs, 5'9" I can not be considered 'fat'. It's all 'in my head' - but that's the problem. I feel so overweight every time I see a full length picture of myself, and that makes me sad. I don't know if it's my own distortions, or reality anymore. Either way, I'm not happy with my body like this. I want to get back in the 130s soon, and then lower.
My energy levels haven't been fantastic. That's making me miserable. I only just got my energy back, and now it's starting to drop again. I felt so weak this evening that I couldn't bring myself to even think about going to the gym. The walk there alone would have been enough to tire me out. So I'll go tomorrow afternoon, or just wait until Monday, by which time hopefully some of my energy will have returned.
Ate way too many carbs today. Partly because of the low energy. I should probably think about cutting down, but it's hard being a vegan and limiting complex carbs, but maybe lowering them and filling up on fruit and veg instead wouldn't be a bad idea.
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