Low-carb diet.
Cigarettes and alcohol: get pissed, work out, live.
I need to feel alive again... I just feel dead and numb. Filling the hole with food.
Fresh orange juice, fruit smoothies, small amounts of goodness.
No eating out of boredom. Eat only when hunger gnaws. Can't go wrong like that.
Now I know why I'm so frustrated. I'm can't feel happy because I'm not thin and I can't feel sad because there is a whole other life waiting for me.
No no no! Don't let yourself get sucked into negative thoughts! Go on YouTube and search 'pop pilates butt' and then do the 25 min butt blaster video. you'll feel so much better after - I just did and I wanted to die but now I feel great!
ReplyDeleteHey sweetie, I know how you feel. This thing just goes on and on, I know I never feel like I'm getting anywhere. Ugh. Try not to feel too negative though :) I know you can achieve your goals. You're an inspiration. I hope things look a bit better tomorrow. Love you.
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I know how you feel 100%. This past week has been utter hell for me. I don't want to exist, but want to live and see myself at perfect...only to feel that sickening numbness, thinking it may never happen. I sincerely hope you can pull yourself out of it and find something to be positive for. xo
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