For the first time in ages, I think today might actually turn out to be decent. I slept until 10.30 a.m. after a crazy dream, woke up, then went back to sleep (and back to the dream) until 12.30. Then I got up properly, tidied up my face, put a little makeup on to make myself feel put together, and went downstairs for a coffee with my mum at our new dining room table with the back door open and cool air flowing into the house.
I have the next 3 days to concentrate on learning my three set texts for English literature - a day for each text. Saturday I am going to cancel Eliza because I simply can't afford to take the entire weekend off. Sunday I'll see Tina as it's just a quiet evening in and won't put any strain on my revision (hopefully). Then I have Monday and Tuesday to recap everything, do more exam prep, and then Wednesday I sit the last freaking exam of this summer. Then it's freedom time.
Food-wise, I'm going to be trying a different approach over the next few days; one based on intuition rather than calorie-counting. I woke up at 63.7 kilos, which, considering the fact that I had around 1800 calories yesterday, was pretty lucky. I saw my sister and we had coffee at Starbucks, then she came home and we made quite a big dinner which was unplanned. It was worth it though (in my opinion) because I got to spend time with my little sis and talk to her about everything - the moving in, etc. - which sort of justifies the comfort eating element... it's not like I binged on 800 calories by myself, so it's OK. She's in a state, not surprisingly, but I've never seen her this bad, not for a while. She hardly ever cries and she is crying so much lately. However I think this is a good thing, as bottling her feelings up won't do her many favours in the long run. Also, I forgot how clever she can be when she feels like it; we ended up debating the cosmological argument outside Starbucks, and, Jesus Christ, for an unruly fifteen year-old school cop-out, she can argue a philosophical point like there's no tomorrow. It's a shame she uses her intelligence to manipulate people and be borderline sociopathic when might she direct her skills of persuasion and insight differently she could do very well for herself at school. I think it will be interesting living with her again. I've missed out on a whole year of her life.
Awwhh jheez <3 So sweet :) Sister time is legitimate eating time - heck whenever my family see each other they pretty much force food down each others necks, you are literally wading through food to get the remote. And your revision plan sounds good - what exam is it by the way? And I am sure if we all hung out and were friends we would definitely get on like a house on fire, like you said.
ReplyDeleteI think the non counting is a good idea I wish I could just eat cos my body needs it but the greed and gluttony sets in and ruins everything, but its a brilliant ethos! Good luck to you <3 x
Awh, thanks for the shout out. I'm glad you're feeling better, that's the great thing about a new day, we get to start all over afresh.
ReplyDeleteFood goes hand in hand with family time in my house so no reason to feel guilty over that. That's great you're moving in with your sister, she sounds like fun. And yes I think we would all get on too, we've shared so much with each other on these blogs so we'd have plenty to talk about.
Good luck with your revision, much love xxx
:]
ReplyDeleteWhen I'm around my family I tend to forget about calories too!
I never realized this before, but we're the same height!
Thanks hun :) I too think that not counting calories is a good idea at the minute, and good to hear of all the time you're getting spend with your sister! Sounds lovely.
ReplyDeleteAfter these exams are over you'll not know what to do with all your spare time ;) Best of luck! Xx
Thanks for the shot out! I feel so special. Sounds like you have a great plan of action. I am so ready for school to be over with for you too.
ReplyDeleteLove the photo today. I want my midsection to look long and curvy like that.
I say enjoy your day. I need to get back on program and stop bsing around.