Day 5

165.4 this afternoon. Luckily I didn't gain from yesterday. Although in defence alcohol usually dehydrates me, even in small amounts.

5 pounds gone in 5 days.

It's time to do some planning.

Shooting is going to take place roughly 5 weeks from now, so I have to get on it. That means 35 days to get down to at least 153 (the weight I was this time last year) - so 13 lbs. That works out to approximately 0.3 lbs each day, or a little under 3 lbs each week. 2.6 lbs each week to be precise.

I haven't done this in a while, but I haven't forgotten how it works. Plateauing cannot be something I let hinder me. If I must, I'll give my scales to L so I can't get upset over the numbers. Right now I'm only weighing once a day, first thing before I've eaten anything. But in the past I have weighed up to ten times a day while restricting, and I can't get back into that obsessive, derailing kind of number-phobia I've spent the last three years trying to recover from. That means no weighing at night (a huge binge trigger for me) and especially no weighing after a binge. If a binge even happens (I'm not planning on it; and ironically, despite the weight gain, my binges now are much more controlled than they were before).

So without further ado the plan will be as follows: 600 calories a day, and lots and lots of water, until the weight comes off.

*edit*

-3 garlic sausages (330 cal)
-Mustard (5 cal)
-1 egg w/ parsley (80 cal)
-Black coffee w/milk and splenda (15 cal)
-Shirataki noodles (8 cal)
-Tomato and red wine sauce (75 cal)
-Lettuce (10 cal)
-Grated carrots (45 cal)
-Vinaigrette (30 cal)
-Diet coke (1 cal)
-Coffee (25 cal)
-Snickers bar (regrettably - 250 cal)

Total: 875 cal

Without the chocolate bar it would have been 624. F M L. It wasn't even mine, it was L's (I think).

But it was there in the freezer. And I forgot I'd put it in there. It was a nice surprise to see a Snickers amongst the bags and bags of green vegetables.

I seriously have an impulse problem.

Okay so tomorrow the plan is actually to stick to the plan. No deviations:

Breakfast (200 cal):
-Garlic sausage with mustard (110 cal)
-Smoothie with frozen raspberries and coconut water (90 cal)

Lunch (140 cal):
-Black coffee with milk (25 cal)
-1 c. cereal, in a tupperware (115 cal)

Dinner (170 cal):
-1 "beef" burger patty (95 cal)
-Ketchup (15 cal)
-Steamed green beans (60 cal)

...and a fuck ton of water because I'm seriously not drinking enough.

That's the plan. Total: 510 cal, No exceptions. No alcohol. No impulse chocolate bars.

Also, I won't weigh until Tuesday, if I can help it. I don't want anything to throw me off track at this point, when I'm just getting into the thick of it.

Only 6 lbs until 159...

[In other news, I think I'm finally getting used to the feeling of hunger. Or rather, the hunger I was experiencing on Days 1 & 2 has significantly diminished. And my skin has cleared up completely. Coincidence? I think not.]