Another "day one"

I seem to be out of the bingeing cycle - at long last. I must confess to something that has been helping me (and please bear in mind when you read on: this isn't a healthy behaviour at all, and I definitely wouldn't advise you to do it under any circumstances, unless, of course, it is to prevent a big binge and purge session, compared to which it is preferable). I've been chewing and spitting out the food I would normally binge on. Secretly, and alone, of course. Usually it won't be that much. Maybe a couple of bags of crisps, toast, occasionally cereal, that kind of thing. Nothing chocolatey or creamy, like peanut butter, because I find (tmi coming up) that it's hard to know if I've 'got it all out' when I spit, as it tends to stick to my teeth and roof of my mouth. It's something I am trying to stop, but when everyone's out of the house and I get that binge urge, to me it is far more appealing than actually swallowing and ingesting all that food, and having to compensate later. But anyway. On we go.

Today has been excellent. I had a lovely day with my mum doing jobs around the house, and walking down to the shopping centre to drop off all the clothes I cleared out of my room yesterday. I also bought my sister some new hair dye because she tried to go blonde recently and it failed epically. I always get really fascinated whenever perusing the dye aisles, but sadly I can't really pull off any other colour than my natural dark brown, due to my skin tone :( Maybe if I was thin I would be able to go a different colour, but it would look a bit weird with my eyebrows :P

I still haven't gone to the gym though. Big fat failure. Made up for it with a relatively low intake, however. Fruit salad, fat free yogurt, toast with PB, salad nicoise, coffee and diet coke is all that has passed my lips today. Call it 750 max? And I haven't eaten since 6pm, which is definitely a good sign - lots of time to burn those calories off. Tomorrow I'll stick to 2 meals (fruit, yogurt and toast for breakfast, coffee/tea/diet coke/water throughout the day, and a salad for dinner. Or soup. Soup is good. I bought some leek & potato earlier because it's my favourite. And 50p from Tesco, which is a total bargain. :)