Take 2

I have decided to throw my scales away. Probably about time, because the pair I own are always give me different readings, confuse and panic the heck out of me, and generally cause me grief. They're like a year old and the battery's almost gone, so it was time to ditch them for good, I think. Not to mention, weighing myself is a major issue/compulsion for me, and I think I need a break from the scales. Time to start going by how my clothes fit and how I see myself in the mirror for a while - I'm thinking I'll end this 'scales cleanse' around mid-March, when I'll most definitely be able to afford a new pair that don't give me shit, unreliable readings. Awesome. 

I finally had a normal day today. Went to the gym (whoop whoop!), had a good work-out, and generally ate like any ordinary person out there. I didn't count calories, I just went via hunger signals and how full I felt during meals. I think portion control is a major issue for me.   

I don't want to binge anymore, purge anymore, harm my body anymore. I just want to be normal I guess, like other teenagers without resorting to starvation, or desperate overeating. It should be something fun, not painful or stressful. I'm also going to work towards giving up smoking in March, so from now on I'll be cutting down for sure. I'm on a mission to feel better!