Should I cut to 800 calories until I see 159? Or 600?
I don't know anymore. I just want this whole process to speed the f*ck up. I need to be back in the 150s, for good. For my sanity, for mental clarity. For some sense of control.
I have a feeling I'll weigh 162 or 163 again tomorrow, without reason. I feel heavy and bloated. Heavier than last night. My body is so fucked that a cup-a-soup will be the difference between a loss and a gain.
I need to devise a plan to lose ~3 lbs in 3 days. To see 159 by Friday.
That is my current goal, the first official, concrete goal I've made since I started writing again.
159 on Friday I will be.
I can't stand this wait. It really does feel like I'm waiting. For the weight to fall off and the stress of the last year to fall away.
Let the tomato soup, rice cake and fruit diet commence.
Oh yeah, and I swallowed a bunch of laxatives about ten minutes ago, when the 3am reading told me 166. Fuck that shit.
I doubt the 3am reading will be accurate. Good luck reaching 159 by Friday. x
ReplyDeleteIn the big picture, cutting those extra few hundred calories won't make that much of a difference to your progress. It'll just push your intake lower and lower every time your weight loss slows down, and royally fuck up your metabolism. It's worth waiting it out a little longer, if you ask me.
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