Day 2

140.0 again this morning, wah wah :( I'm not too fussed about it though, I know what did it - when I got home last night my mum offered me some mac and cheese she'd made for her and her boyfriend and... well, my discipline went straight out the window. It was like 1 o'clock in the morning as well :/. Ahh so 0.2 of a lb isn't that bad, and no one else will be able to see it on me... still, I would've liked to be 139 for going out today :( Just a mental thing you know?

I'm gonna stay positive. Had a big healthy breakfast full of goodness and today in Camden, all I will allow myself will be an iced non-fat mocha frappuccino from Starbucks (96 calories of icy, creamy glory) and cigarettes. And holy diet coke. 

Also, I'm definitely going to be wearing my skinny jeans again, because the weather is not quite up to it today :( Cry cry. I was hoping it would be lovely and hot and sunny, but right now it looks a bit cloudy and cold, which is not what we want... maybe the sun will come out later? Here's hoping.

/EDIT: Aghhh! My resolve seems to crumble whenever I am out with friends. I must do better :( AAh well. Had a lovely day. I bought a wind-up clock necklace, a bluey-grey lacey summer dress that will be perfect for holiday next week, and this super cool cigarette tin that lights and dispenses. 

OK, so I have a little plan in my head for the next few weeks. I'm going to stick to 1500 calories a day, made up of three 500 cal meals. That's what the French do right? They don't snack like us lazy English bastards with our finger food and chocolate bars. They eat at tables three times a day and they ENJOY their meals because they've WAITED for them. So, that is exactly what I shall do. B-500 L-500 D-500. Breakfast 9-11 a.m., lunch 1-3 p.m., and dinner 6-8 p.m. I did a little shop for my French diet. Cheese, veggies, probiotic blueberry yogurt, coleslaw, fruit smoothie, thin sausages and wholemeal bread rolls. Yummy!

When we go to stay by the sea at the end of next week, my meal times might be a little different (ie. brunches instead of separate breakfast and lunch because of waking up late, ice cream replacing meals and very late suppers!) But it should be OK if I stick to 1500 in my head and don't drink too much wine on the beach with my sister. We're planning on smuggling her hip flask and a shitload of cigarettes down there, so we can sneak off to the sea late at night and play music and drink :P Tut tut.

If any of you have had bad Marches, like I have - fear not, tomorrow is the start of a new month. April will be so much better. I promise.