-I went to the eating disorders centre for my appointment. The psychotherapist I talked to was genuinely one of the loveliest women. She made me feel so comfortable and safe and we were also able to have a good conversation about things. I'm half way through an assessment with her, and I'm going back for another session at the beginning of April to finish. (It's a long, protracted process with the NHS).
-I decided, after the meeting, to change my goals a little bit. When I told her how much I'd been eating, she said it wasn't nearly enough for someone my height. I already knew this, of course, but hearing someone else - a professional - putting it into context for me, kind of changed my perspective a little. So I'm settled on 130-133 lbs as a 'goal weight range', and my calorie allowance is going to be less strict from now on: 1000-1500 calories. This will give me the scope to eat a bit more on days where I'm seeing people (like going over to my dad's for dinner), and then to follow it up with a slightly lower day so I balance out and don't feel guilty. I'm going to take my time. As long as I stay in the 130s, I'm happy for now.
-I have to drop some money into school and my mum went into the gallery for work today, so she couldn't do it. So, I am going to be dropping it in myself (and using public transport for the first time in a month) - which is a little nerve-wracking but also very exciting, because I'm going to see some of my friends for the first time since hospital! Eek!
I shall write a proper post later, but right now I must go and hop into my bath :)
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