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Saturday, 14 July 2012

The perfect day to start

Well yesterday I had fun but I fucked up my eating plan majorly! We went over to Tina's and drank wine and ordered pizza (death in a box) on top of eating many other sinful foods so I really didn't want to step on the scale this morning. Not that I could, because I was with Alfie :) He came back to sleep at mine and we just cuddled and kissed and then pretty much fell unconscious haha. My mum was out of town and my sister was asleep upstairs with her friend, and there was actually a point where I thought we could, you know, go a bit further. But he didn't have a condom and I think digging through my mother's drawers for one would have been more emotionally scarring than beneficial, so we couldn't :( But I really do want to, though. I'm thinking with clarity of mind now, my spirits have lifted and I'm able to make rational decisions... which I wasn't able to do a few days ago. So I know that I definitely want to sleep with him, soon. Although I don't know when.

This weekend I have the perfect opportunity to start restricting again. I'm babysitting from 6.30 today, which means no demand to eat with friends. I'm not really in the bingeing mood today for the first time in... fuck knows how long. And tomorrow I *finally* have an appointment at the passport office, which will take 5-6 hours out of my day (yawn), but hopefully that's 5-6 hours of no eating. I bought a bag of royal gala apples (43 calories each) and I'm going to have one for dinner - new staple :) I've already had 2 chocolate crispy cakes and a bit of bread with hoummous, because I didn't want to feel like a weirdo while Alfie had breakfast and I had nothing :/ Being in a relationship could make me so fat. Literally it's not even funny. There's no break with guys... they are just eating machines.

So today I'm going to stick to 600 calories limit today and tomorrow. Then on Monday I will step on the scales and reassess the situation. Praying for 140 by then.

*Interlude* Ugh my sister is currently in the bathroom taking an age - she's been in there for nearly 40 minutes preening herself and has locked the door D: And I really need to get in there to pee, I'm kind of hopping around, because I just had a diet pepsi and that stuff goes straight through me D: *Interlude over*

Sometimes it really sucks having three women in one small house all living together and getting in each others' hair and taking 45 effing minutes in our single bathroom.

Fuuuuuck.

Will update later x

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  1. Just Another Ordinary Girl16 July 2012 at 19:30

    I had to laugh when I read this: "I think digging through my mother's drawers for one would have been more emotionally scarring than beneficial," brilliant. But it sounds like it's going nicely for you two, hurray! You need and deserve that, and I'm glad he's so sweet to you. And don't even get me started on guys and eating - professional athletes are THE WORST in this, because they're always eating, to keep themselves energised, and because their metabolism is always going, and it's madness. But I'd rather have him and that than not.

    And apples are amazing! So many different ways to eat them.

    Love you,
    <3.

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  2. WinterA17 July 2012 at 08:23

    Yay!!!! For the Alfie part. I am super excited for you two. I am glad you didn't go into mom's drawers. I saw and empty condom rapper in my parents room one time and it still gives me the creeps.

    My mom had her own bathroom and my sister is too lazy to invest in getting cute in the morning so the bathroom is always all mine. Or was before I moved out....

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