Well this is strange.

I'm back again. Time to start up the old blog/dieting wagon. It's strange, but familiar. Like home.

I had a good stab last year, but it dried up. I'm the highest I've ever been. I weighed 208 on the scales last night, and 203 this morning. Ugh. I cannot keep this up. Don't feel or look like me. And the bloating is insane. In fact, I wouldn't be surprised if half of this weight gain is sheer bloat.

I've been gorging myself but my appetite is so huge, I haven't known how to reign it in. And it's been scaring me. Because I've not been accountable to anything or anyone for a long time now.

Slipped back into my old vegan ways on 1st January. Veganuary was a good excuse, that and the fact that I'm throupling with a pretty vegan couple right now. They're both so gorgeous and skinny, and I feel like I'm the wild exotic amazonian thing they happened to get dragged in with. I want to match them. 

Today's intake to start, and personal drama will invariably follow in the coming posts (you know me). 

- Baked potato with vegan cheese & plant based spread (300?)
- Piece of toast with vegan cream cheese & tomato, salt and pepper (200?)
- Fruit juice (150)
- Bite of homemade houmous (50?) 
- Homemade mushroom soup w/ croutons, crispy onions, maggi (200) 
- Dried strawberry bite thingies (40?)
- Handful of blueberries (30?) 
- Peppermint tea & black coffee (2) 
- 1 cup all-bran cereal (200?)

Total: 1172 calories 

I think I forgot how to count calories. I think I forgot they existed.

Yikes.