Day 7

90 (Iced oat latte)

355 (2 smashed beef burgers)

90 (Bacon mayo) 

160 (Protein bar) 

Weight: 163.1

Day 6

100 (Poached egg)

120 (Smashed avo)

180 (Mayo)

175 (Iced oat latte) 

??? (Korean spicy fried chicken and kimchi, beansprouts, spinach)

??? (1 1/2 Pints of cider)

Didn't feel like I went crazy but over a thousand for sure....

Weight: 164.6

Day 5

100 (Baby carrots)

200 (Ranch and cottage cheese dip) 

90 (Oat milk latte, iced) 

1 (Coke Zero)

210 (Quorn chicken slices w/ bbq sauce and mayo)

260 (Vegan soya pieces) 861

350 (Caesar saoad) 

90 (Gin and tonic)

180 (Protein choc mousse, berries) 

110 (Starbucks) 

Total: 1491 calories

Weight: 163.8 

Day 4

100 (Baby carrots)

250 (Sour cream toasted onion dip) 

90 (Oat milk latte, iced) 

1 (Coke Zero)

210 (Quorn chicken slices w/ bbq sauce and mayo)

260 (Real chicken pieces. lol)

80 (Cherry tomatoes) 

Total: 991 calories

Weight: 164.7 

Forgot to mention I rode the tube with B the other day. I invited him to meet with me on Tuesday afternoon on my way to work at TCR and took it upon myself to deliver a half an hour speech about how much he had disappointed me on the Lizzie line. Seemed like a good opportuniy since he couldn't escape. And he cried. It was excellent. Was it a dream or real life? Who knows. Liminal spaces are good to tell someone what for - because it doesn't count. Over the past 4 years we've often met for a tube ride, setting off from various London stations, like a couple of sewer rats. It's a good way to hold an undetected meeting during a long-term extra marital affair. 

I miss M, but I do like my freedom.

Weight going down. Thank God.

Waiting on second Elvanse prescription. It should come through this weekend. I hope. I pray. That shit works wonders, especially if they are to titrate me up. 

Day 2

250 (Baby carrots)

350 (Various creamy dips) 

90 (Oat milk latte, iced) 

1 (Coke Zero)

80 (Smoked tofu)

420 (Quorn chicken pieces)

360 (2 Dark Chocolate and Peanut Butter cups)

??? (3 double vodka and tonics)

Total: 1,551 calories

Weight: 167.0 lbs 

We go again

I was heavier, much heavier, this time last year. 190 lbs plus, to be precise. It's been getting better, I've been shedding. Eating less has become easier. I fell in love. Started writing a show. Found myself again. Fixed a lot of ptoblems through diet. But still a ways to go. As of this morning, I'm 166.7 lbs, about 30 lbs down from June last year. My goal is 135-140. Not sure on the plan yet, beyond keeping things below 1000 cals/day and possibly rejoining the gym. We'll go again.