Walking contradiction

I genuinely can't wait for school to start. Yes, I am dreading it. but it will also be good for me; it will force me into some kind of pattern/routine, make me feel less like a lost cause, help me stick to strict meal times, and I will be able to work better and more effectively (and hopefully fall asleep earlier). I actually hate school and I can't wait for it to end, but equally I know that lack of structure doesn't go down well with me. I just end up doing nothing and getting nothing done.

My mother is on the war path. About everything. My work, the house (we have to pack up and move in 2 weeks - we still don't know where we're going). The fact that I forgot to take down some of my laundry and a cup. I know she is stressed but she doesn't have to take it out on me.