-- 2 peaches (76)
-- 3 dates (60)
-- 1/2 tbsp peanut butter (60)
-- Energy drink (150)
-- 2 cups of orange juice (180)
-- Salad- croutons, tomatoes, lettuce (70)
-- Hoummous (150)
-- 4 rice cakes (92)
= 838 calories so far.
It's 9pm but I'll probably get hungry in a couple of hours, in which case I'll have tomato soup (75) and some cherry tomatoes (40). Part of me wants to try and stick it out on no food, for the promise of 161 tomorrow. Although I'm not banking on it, knowing how reliable my body is at losing weight even when I have a "good day".
Today's been a bit better. I felt a little more positive, even though I've been walking around with fucking neosporin on my face all day like a mental patient. It's fine. I know it will heal if I leave it alone and keep putting cream on it. I probably could go out if I was really desperate but putting makeup on is just going to irritate everything and prolong the process. I don't feel too bad about not going out tonight. I feel comfortable at home, with my laptop and movies and books and cats. My friends aren't going anywhere, I can catch up with them later in the week. Right now I just want to be cosy and have alone time, and social plans can wait. I like hibernating. I just hope I can re-emerge more of a butterfly at the end of it. A beautiful f*cking thin butterfly that is.
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