I want to try 2-4-6-8, or possibly just 4-6-8, obviously starting with the 800 day. Or maybe just burning off every single calorie I eat. I'm really sick of this shit.
Ballooned again, working it off as fast as possible. In two days I've gone from 170 to 165.6 lbs; my completely ridiculous but non-negotiable plan is to get down to 150 by the start of term. I cannot endure another month of this weight range, I just cannot. I hate what this body connotes about me. I want my body to be a weapon and an instrument, sharp and refined and disciplined. Not this lazy corpulent mass of flesh.
I haven't figured out what's causing me to self-sabotage yet, but I'm working on it. What's really hard for me is the night-time. When everyone goes to bed is when I take the opportunity to stuff my face with useless food items that have no nutritional benefit and only serve to comfort me when I'm feeling bored and hyperactive on my own. It's been such a while since I've restricted properly, so I'm giving it everything I've got because I know full well it's going to be a job.
I downloaded a pedometer onto my iPhone and I'm working on taking 10,000 steps a day as a bare minimum. It's actually a lot harder than you'd think and I've realised I really need to raise my activity level. No wonder I'm fat and listless, when I only take a couple of thousand steps a day. I've been jogging on the spot intermittently throughout the day because seeing the number go up is just so damn satisfying.
Maybe night time would be the best time for you to go to a 24 hour gym (assuming there is a local one)? x
ReplyDeleteUrgh, night-eating is the devil. I hope you figure out what works best for you soon. I have one of those pedometer apps too. I'm lucky to do 2,000 steps on non-exercise days, hah. Doing basic step-ups is my favourite way of boosting the number.
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