Day 2/3

Breakfast/Lunch:
- Had half of the Cocio, 1 pain au chocolat, a plum and half of the cheese.

Snack at the library:
- A Sprite, sunbites + a roll of fruit pastilles (vending machine life...)

Dinner:
- 4 Linda McCartney vegetarian sausages + black lentils w/ tomato, feta, parsley, onions

Total: ~1900 calories

So yesterday wasn't exactly low-cal, but this afternoon I weigh 169.8 again, ie. back in the safe zone.

Mummy is coming up on Sunday to keep me company for a couple of days. I really need it. It'll mean having to wake up early af, but you know what, I need to stop sleeping in until lunch time. I need a routine. I have two effing weeks until my dissertation is due for hand-in, I have to get my stuff sorted out. No more fucking around! Yesterday I hauled fourteen freaking heavy hardback books back from the library, and I had to pay a £22 fine in order to take them out in the first place, so you know... I need to actually make that debt worth it and go through those books.

Today I've had 2 pain au chocolats, an Actimel and about a litre of water. I've done virtually nothing, besides binge-watch Gossip Girl and knit. Don't know what's up with my lack of focus lately. oh unless you're counting what happened last Wednesday. But we're not going to talk about that again until this degree is actually finished for sanity's sake.

Going to get a drink with JM tomorrow potentially. I went over to his house last Sunday, it was nice to remind myself I do actually still have some friends. I told him everything that had happened with L, he was amazingly supportive. Also, an old friend of JG is still hanging around town, and wants to see me. Because his name starts with another "J", I'll call him Jed for distinguishing purposes (forgive me, it's been a while since I've blogged about my life to the extent of having to find anonyms for the people in it). I didn't want to give the wrong idea by hanging out with Jed last year because I was sleeping with JG, but seeing as it's been literally a year since I heard from that boy, I'm going to say that potentially it's fine to go on a date with Jed in May. If it is a date. I mean Jesus, I'm getting presumptuous. Maybe he just wants to hang out as friends. Just to throw the question out there: is someone into you if they mention they wanted to ask you to a lecture on sixties cinema on campus, when they don't even attend your university? God knows I can't read signals anymore. Especially not from 25 year old guys.