The insomnia beast has reared its ugly head yet again, so I've had time to do some thinking. I've decided that when I go back to school in two weeks, I will weigh 136 lbs. This is pretty steep, I realise. But I remember that last year was the Christmas after which a previously 150-lb Charlie had come back at 130 lbs, and we were all drooling over her new svelte figure. (If only we had known how 'svelte' she would eventually become). A little healthy, indirect competition never did anyone any harm. Charlie's not even coming back in January. She's going to a college for the last six months of school. The new goal will mean restricting like mad. I'm only going to eat when my stomach starts to rumble from hunger; otherwise, I'll sip diet coke and water like there's no tomorrow. No bingeing - how hard can it be to hold out two measly weeks??! I want people to notice.