Vegan binge

So I thought I'd be a good girl today, cleanse my body of all the terrible junk I've been shovelling for the past week, and eat 600-800 calories of nutritious, low fat vegan food. I was so close to making it work. My error was that I had my supper of pea & mint soup early, at like 5pm. I was so restless and so worried I would binge that I got dressed and went on a long walk. During this walk I passed the health food shop near my house. It's a really cool big one that stocks these awesome vegan/vegetarian options that you can't get in many places over here. I used to shop there all the time during my vegetarian days last year. But anyway... I thought to myself, 'I'll stock up on some stuff so I can do a few days of this' and picked up some quinoa salad, lots of fruit smoothies and vegetable juices, a couple of raw vegan cereal bars, raw cacao & cinnamon kale chips, more falafel, etc. I brought it all home and within an hour, I had eaten over half of it.
 
I do it to myself.

Here's how my week looks. Tomorrow I'm collecting my sister from a therapy session and bringing her back home for dinner. I don't know what that will entail, which is making me stupidly anxious, so I'm gonna have to play tomorrow by ear. On Saturday I'm spending the day with Eliza, and then going out for Italian, which will be the death of me, and on Sunday I'm having supper at Tina's, which may or may not be healthy. So that leaves me Thursday and Friday to myself, during which I am going to try my absolute goddamn hardest to restrict. I need to, if I stand any chance at NOT looking like a fat cow once exams are over.

I'm trying really hard to dig myself out of this hole, readers, I really am. Because let's face it, no one wants to read about a girl who just binges continuously and never loses any weight. So it's time to get myself on track. I need to be in the 61's by the beginning of next week. Losing weight is the only thing that makes me truly happy these days.