Evening, world

Feeling soooo mellow right now. Last night it was Bash's 18th birthday and I almost didn't go out because I woke up at 4pm and felt so zonked. I skipped the dinner, but irony was I turned up to her house for the 'afterparty' later, and ended up eating a shitload of food anyway... kind of counterproductive :P Then today we just got stoned and lay around her room all day watching TV and talking shit, oh and she made me food. Lots and lots and lots of food. Homemade garlic & chilli refried beans with pitta, hoummous, guacamole and salsa... yogurt... croissant... leftover chocolate cookies and fucking CHEESECAKE. Then her friend Jon, who she goes on about all the time but whom I've never met until now (he's awesome) came over and we picked up again and got even more stoned. Sooo stoned. But now I'm in my own house just sort of chilling and drinking diet coke and coming down, and trying not to binge anymore. Munchies are a more acceptable form of bingeing I think, but eating at 9pm just because you're no longer around others and don't know what to do with yourself, is just tragic. So I'm going to try to curtail my consumption now before I gain 100 million pounds this summer.

I need to go to bed before 2am tonight, wake up at a reasonable hour, and get myself back into some sort of normal non-nocturnal schedule for a while. I also need to jump back on the seemingly very elusive losing-weight wagon, which I currently am not able to stay on for longer than 2 or 3 days before I fuck up. I think it's the eating at night which really screws up my system. I can't (tmi) shit at normal times, and I end up bloated and feeling disgusting at 5pm, not to mention my skin has only JUST recovered from my study-leave breakout, and I don't want it to revert to looking like crap all over again. Lastly, I need to stop chain smoking, which I have been doing every day for the past week, pretty much. I've gone from smoking 2-3 a day to 10 a day and it's making me feel retardedly dependent, which I do not like. So from now on, until I'm off to the US in mid-July, I think I need to set down a few ground rules. Last-ditch attempts to lose 15 lbs in under 3 weeks are usually unsuccessful but I want to make it happen. I am not happy being closer to 145 than 140, and currently that's where I sit, so things have to change.

Now that I've sussed out what my summer is going to be consisting of, I feel fairly qualified to write up a new '60 kilos or less by July 15' plan (honestly, I'd like to see 58, but that seems a little unfeasible at this point. So for now it's 60 or less).

-No eating of food between the hours of 8pm and 8am. Non-fattening alcohol may be consumed during these hours however, ie. vodka with tonic or diet coke, versus wine, beer or creamy liqueurs.
-No more than 1 pack of cigarettes a week, and at least 1 day off smoking per week
-1,000 calorie limit per day, but try to stay as far under this as possible, and alcohol calories do count.
-Curtail diet coke addiction (again)
-Don't eat more than twice a day, and try to keep a diet of around 75% liquids. (eg. homemade soy frappuccinos, orange juice, cocktails, smoothie and of course shitloads of water)
-As for food - go for healthy and light, eg. vegetable sushi; wholegrain crisps; summer soups; fresh fruit and veg; yogurts etc.

The aim is to fit into this pair of shorts Charlie gave me a few months ago. I'd really like to take them to the US seeing as I never have any money, and it would save me shorts shopping... aha... but they're too small for me. I can't actually do them up, although they do fit over my huge ass, which is quite a miracle let me tell you. I reckon it would take about 10 lbs to fit them comfortably so that's pretty much my goal.

Hope you are all OK and not going too crazy now it's the summer :D