Zero energy

140.6 lbs this morning. 139 for tomorrow is looking good! Thank you for your lovely words on my posts! It's so nice to hear from all of you. I'm not feeling very well at the moment. Very low-energy, not psychologically depressed but rather physically so. I went into school yesterday for English literature but today I couldn't manage it, so I've just been snuggling up in bed with a hot water bottle and Bones. (Nothing like David Boreanaz to cheer you up on a bad day). I allowed myself a little Milky Way bar (98 calories) as a treat because I felt I needed a sugar boost. I love mini chocolate bars <3 You only need a small amount to taste it anyway. I heard that you stop enjoying food after 3 bites because you're no longer eating for necessity but out of luxury or gluttony. Just something to think about.

I am fretting about tomorrow a bit because I have two consecutive events in the evening (theatre then party), and I know I'm going to have to eat at one of them. I'm hoping I will be able to get away with a diet coke at the theatre in the interval. I'll just tell my dad I'm going on to a POOL (!) party afterwards and don't want to eat ice cream. It's not a big deal. Then I'll give myself a 500 calorie allowance for alcohol AND food at the party. I'm thinking 5 vodka & diet cokes (or whatever amounts to the same calories) which will get me tipsy at best, but not so drunk I'll be knocked out for the entire weekend. Then I'll have room for a packet of crisps/couple of bites of pizza/whatever's going round. I honestly don't think I'll be particularly tempted to binge when I'm going round half naked. And in a pool you can just bob around and hold your drink of choice. As long as I'm manically talking to someone or swimming, I can't eat.