Energetic

So last night I didn't end up sticking to the plan of fasting... or even healthy eating :/ I did good all day, only having a fresh fruit smoothie and a salad. Then I went to see Men In Black 3 with my pop (SO good by the way!) and my resolve crumbled... I got sweets. And diet coke. And I smoked afterwards. The 3 things I am NOT supposed to be doing with this chronic fatigue thing. Oh well. For the whole evening, despite having had a borderline depressing day inside, I felt strangely energetic. Maybe it's because my dad was ridiculously tired from work and seemed lethargic in comparison, but I managed to turn into a sprite the second I saw him and we had a really good evening.

It was slightly ruined by my mum being cranky with me when I got through the door. First of all she told me off for 'reeking of cigarette smoke', which is fair enough, but I didn't smoke any more than I usually do, and it's not like I've ever kept my filthy habit a secret from her. Then she started shouting at me about my room, saying it was a mess and I never took responsibility. Normal teenage stuff. But it was 11 o'clock at night. Sigh. She was fine this morning, before she left for work. So all's good now.

And, when I stepped on the scales, I saw 136.4 flash up at me, which means I'm a pound down from yesterday, and half the damage from the binge hath been reversed. Thank the lord.

My new plan, which I intend on following this week and beyond if it works out, is as follows:

Breakfast: Cup of soymilk or coffee
Lunch: Fruit (eg. berries, a smoothie)
Snack: Protein (eg. tbsp of peanut butter)
Dinner: Protein + vegetables

It's really simple and allows calories to be low but not too low. I'm not seeing any friends until Sunday (I think) so I have the whole week to work my arse off, and lose weight before I see anyone again. My goal is to be 132 lbs by Sunday. The last time I saw people like Tina, Caro, Charlie etc., I weighed around 141 lbs. So pretty much a 10lb difference. Is it wrong that I want to shock people? I don't know. Probably. I don't really care. I want to be the skinny friend.