Crackers, cheese, salami, hoummous, juice, yoghurt, peanuts.
What the fuck? Why do I do this to myself. I didn't even WANT it for Christ's sake. And it's not like I can compensate with laxatives, or fasting, like I used to, because then I am breaking the promises I have made to my therapists and myself.
Well, I can forget about being 'ahead of schedule' or whatever. Because clearly I'm now going to be a pound - or more - behind schedule. Clearly, I WANT to mess up, big-time.
I MUST finish my literature essay tonight, because then at least I will have achieved SOMETHING with my day.
I am so angry at myself right now. Why do I even bother?
It happens to us all sweetheart. Sorry that you have struggled today. I always binge if I feel out of control in some other area - maybe your Lit. essay is stressing you - but don't worry it's not going to last forever! Drink lots of water and don't overcompensate tomorrow. It's so good you have kept your promises to your therapist :)
ReplyDeleteThank you Isobel. <3
DeleteNo you did not WANT it, it just happened. It happens to me also can understand what you are going through... All I can say is let tomorrow be a NEW day and do not let yesterdays binging bring you down. XOXO
ReplyDeleteI feel so bad for you :( I totally now what your going through right now.. Its sucks :( Good luck with your schoolwork!
ReplyDeleteLove you! Anna