Day four

Final intake for today:

B: Porridge with cinnamon and sultanas 250 kcal

S: Mango, passion fruit & goji berry smoothie 120 kcal

L: Salad with lettuce, grapes, celery, sultanas & Russian dressing 250 kcal

S: Orange and carrot juice 236 kcal

D: Couscous with red pepper, onion and petit pois 300 kcal

T: 1156 kcal

I just beautified myself for the casting tomorrow and I am So. Scared. I don't even know why, it's not like I have to make any public speeches or prove how intelligent I am... just turn up, walk, smile, leave. But it's like everyone there is going to be judging me, seeing my body... but I guess that's what modelling is all about, isn't it. People seeing your body.

I'll probably run out screaming or faint or die or something. If I'm not here tomorrow evening you'll know why.

^ Wish I could be her.