140.8

So I'm finally back at my favourite benchmark 140, after *counts* 3 weeks? Jesus. Who would have thought it'd be so hard to get out of 3 fucking pound range! Hard, evidently, although I hope it stays that way, and my weight keeps going down, because the next step is being back in the 130s, and after that, holy milestone 135 (my lowest weight on this blog).

I've made a few decisions about the upcoming week. My first decision is that I won't be consuming alcohol. That's right, kids, I'm doing it sober until I go away. My second decision is that I am going to prioritise daytime social confab over nighttime social binge drinking. The reason being the obvious - that whenever I'm with friends at night we just eat and drink really late, and I swear I don't get the 'bingey' vibe until at least 8 or 9 pm anyway; so if I keep arrangements in the day, I'll a) be less likely to binge, b) it will be less socially acceptable to drink and c) of course easier and safer for me to get home, as sitting on a 4am London night bus drunk and alone isn't really the place to be when you're an 18 year old girl who happens to wear skirts the length of belts. Sucks but that's the truth.

I will be sticking to 600 calories a day (I should say 500-700 really, as it can range, but 600 is such a nice solid number). On days where I feel I want to 'maintain' the weight I'm at or maybe just take a little break from dieting (as outlined in my previous post) I will do a 900 day, ie. 800-1000. Anything over 1000 will be a failure and I will compensate the next day with either fruit fasting, or making it a super low-calorie day. I also aim to start doing some exercise again. Nothing hardcore because I have chronic fatigue and hard exercise makes my symptoms worse. So no running, no super intense cardio. But I will be doing light exercise to tone and firm things up - some pilates and yoga, I'm thinking.

Today the plan is: go to the passport office to collect passport (such a long way to go for 5 minutes of collection); see Eliza (we haven't hung out for ages and made lunch plans for this afternoon). I will just get a coffee or a frozen yogurt or something because I can't be bothered to eat a sandwich and suffer the consequences of feeling guilty for days. Then I have to meet with this guy to give him his jumper back because he lent it to me after prom because I was cold (I barely know him). And tonight I was going to see Tina but I really am not up for ordering pizza and drinking 2 bottles of wine, it's just... not going to gel with me at the moment. So either I'll postpone it or I'll just meet her in the afternoon OUT of her house seeing as it's far less civilised to binge in public as it is in the prviacy someone's bedroom.

Hope everyone is well x