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Monday, 30 July 2012

Hot chocolate & cigarettes.

I don't feel very different today. 142.8 lbs. Obviously my body adores this number. It makes me shudder, though. I'm not myself up here. I can't move as freely. Today so far I've had a croissant with nutella, a hot chocolate with vanilla soymilk, and holy diet coke. That's about 400 and far too much sugar. In an hour I'm going out for dinner with friends. I will get a salad, some form of alcoholic drink, a bit of bread, and that will be it. No bloating. Keeping to 1000 calories. Then I will come back here with whoever is still around and mong out with some cigarettes and diet coke & vodka. Yes please. I'd like to see 141 tomorrow... if that's even possible. Oh and I started my period. Fingers crossed it's the last one I have this year. My new goal is 8 stone (112 lbs). Only because mother said I would look 'fabulous' at that weight. I'm jealous of my sister's lifestyle. Couch surfing, not home for days. Hundreds of people, lots of alcohol, getting treated like a charity case by her rich friends and frolicking around London all skinny and fairy in tinytiny clothes. That will be me one day. They'll see.

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  1. The Lovely Bones30 July 2012 at 12:55

    Vodka, diet coke and cigarettes sounds like heaven. I wish I could survive on that combination purely.
    Good luck getting to 112 lbs. 8 stone sounds so good to me, I wish I could get there too.
    Take care.

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  2. clytie30 July 2012 at 13:24

    I hope your metamorphisis is successful.

    That picture is beautiful.

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  3. Rayya30 July 2012 at 16:58

    haha diet coke <3 good luck hun, you can do this :) x

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  4. WinterA31 July 2012 at 13:29

    I love that photo! Yeah having a period sucks. I messes everything up for me. Like I think I am not losing weight but I really am. It doesn't show until after my body is done being bloated.

    Everyone's body has a weight it likes to be at. Mine was actually that number too. 142lb. I mean use to go 4 days without eating at all and the scale still didn't move. Of course I would give anything to see that number now.

    112lb would look lovely on you. I know you can get there. You are already working on a plan. So that is great. We have to shock the body sometimes. Very annoying to have to keep coming up with new ways to do that but as long as we get to out goal weight then it is all worth it.

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  5. Just Another Ordinary Girl31 August 2012 at 20:45

    Good luck, sweetheart. And I already think of you as a fairy - mostly because you almost came into my life by a bit of magic. :)

    Stay beautiful,
    <3.

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